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A/N: This is a sequel to one of my first Lexana fics.
To those of you who haven't read the original, I'll just say: give it a try. I guarantee you'll love the way Lex and Lana's relationship evolves. If you don't care to read the first part- shame on you !- or you're absent-minded, here's an introduction to connect both fictions.
As usual, reviews are more than welcome. Enjoy !
REVENGE REDUX
INTRODUCTION
Six months had gone by since the first and only time Lex slept next to the wounded young girl he was so desperately in love with. Nothing unbecoming had happened- nothing other than the comforting embrace of a man who sought to drive away the evil ghosts that were haunting her dreams.
The morning after had been full of surprises, starting with the PI's phone call Lex had answered while still holding a sleeping Lana in his arms. Their first sunrise together would remain imprinted on Lex's mind for years to come, since that very phone call had revealed the terrible secret behind Lana's nightmares, a secret which almost drove him to murder for her. Sexually assaulted . Those two words rang in his ears over and over again and were the ones Lana read in his eyes the moment she woke up. He had blamed himself for it. He had been the real target, and his former wife, Helen, had known how to get to him and who to use to accomplish her deed.
Helen Bryce and her ex-lover Paul Hayden should thank the Lord for Lana. He had made a promise to her he intended to keep. Promise me, she had said. Promise me you won't cross that bridge no matter what. I don't think I could live with myself if I knew you've lost your soul because of me.
Lex woke up every day still remembering those other words, the confession that had stunned him: I've prayed so many times to find true love in my life... . That he was Lana's true love was a miracle he prayed to deserve every day. Yes, ' prayed '. Lana had made him pray for the first time in fifteen years.
Disclaimer: see Introduction
CHAPTER 1: Healing
Lana's recovery had been long and painful, both physically and psychologically. Lex had been with her every step of the way, making her feel loved and protected. In fact, his support had been instrumental in speeding up her progress, according to her physician- Dr Gardiner- and her psychiatrist- Dr Madison. Not only had Lex equipped the mansion with all the gadgets and comforts necessary for a temporary invalid, he had got her the best medical care available and the most advanced recovery programmes.
Lana's treatment had begun with physiotherapy sessions every day and counselling four times a week during the first two months. Once she regained sensation in her lower limbs, Lex got the services of a specialist who used horses to treat conditions such as Lana's. Knowing her love of riding, he thought it'd be the perfect way to speed up her recovery and give her something to keep her mind busy.
Dr Madison was particularly worried about the amount of free time Lana had in her hands and had discussed with her alternative courses of action. Studying seemed to be the most suitable choice but coming back to MetU was out of the question; it would take Lana a long time to overcome what had happened to her on campus. Once again it was Lex who came up with the perfect solution: a six-month long-distance art course offered by the British Open University programme.
Lex, I can't. You've already done too much.
Lana, nothing's too much. A lifetime won't be enough to compensate you for what happened.
We talked about this the first day I stayed at the mansion, Lex. I told you then I didn't hold you responsible for anything.
But I still feel guilty. I can't shake off that feeling. Take it, please, Lana. If not for you, do it for me. Besides, Art is something you love and you can make use of this library. I've got quite a few volumes which are gathering dust.
Somehow, I doubt that, she smiled. OK, Lex, you win.You always seem to get what you want.
It was June now and Lana was back on her feet. Her treatment was almost over and her sessions had been reduced to two per week. Loving Lana as much as he did, Lex had both hoped and dreaded the moment she would regain her autonomy. Once she could walk again, he would no longer have the buffer of her incapacity to stop him from taking their relationship to the next level. He had waited many years to arrive at this point and he was more than ready to commit himself to a serious relationship with her. Still, he knew in his heart that she wasn't prepared, and he was worried of getting too close to her.
Lex hated Helen and Hayden for depriving Lana of the opportunity to experience the miracle of trusting the man she loved-were that him or any other guy- with her innocence. In addition, he was scared witless that she might confuse him with Hayden in her mind, and he tried to reduce physical contact to a minimum- a fact that didn't pass unnoticed to Lana.
Lana sensed that things had changed between them the day he gave her a beautiful mare as a gift to celebrate her recovery. He had looked pleased when she accepted the present but had disappeared before she could thank him properly. Moreover, she realised that he had started to look uncomfortable around her. There had been no hugging and kissing in months, only an occasional pat or a quick peck on the cheek. Lana began having trouble sleeping and ended up confiding in Dr Madison, who- in turn- decided to take the matter in her hands.
Mr Luthor, I'd like to have a word with you, said Dr Madison one afternoon after her weekly session with Lana.
Certainly, doctor. Have a seat. What can I do for you ?
I'm worried about Lana, Mr Luthor. All seemed to be going OK but in the last few weeks something's changed.
What do you mean, doctor ?
Her old fears have resurfaced.
Is she having nightmares again ?
No, she's having trouble sleeping. Tell me, Mr Luthor, do you happen to know what might be the cause of her unrest ?
You are the doctor, madam. Hasn't she told you what's bothering her ?
And what bothering you, Mr Luthor ?
It's not me you're psychoanalysing, Dr Madison. I don't need a shrink to dig into the recesses of my mind. I had enough of that to last me a lifetime, believe me. I'm paying you to help Lana, Dr Madison. Let me take care of my own mental health.
Being you the one person she leans on, I need to know how you feel.
Nothing's changed, doctor. I still love her. I love her more than I did, if that's possible.
Why don't you tell her that, Mr Luthor ?
I don't think she's ready, Dr Madison.
I'm the doctor, Mr Luthor. You said so yourself.
Yes, doctor, but you don't know Lana like I do. If I make the wrong move, I may end up losing her forever. And I'm not ready to live with that.
And what are you planning on doing, Mr Luthor ?
I'll think of something, doctor. Let me do the thinking. That's the one thing I'm good at.
A couple of days after his chat with the shrink, Lex entered the study to find Lana sitting on the couch with art books and papers scattered all over the coffee table.
Finishing an assignment ? asked Lex studying her face.
Yes. It's the final work, said a demured Lana.
Lana, are you OK ? asked a concerned Lex, noticing the rings under her eyes. Are you resting enough ?
I'm fine, Lex. I'm just worried about this assignment.I wouldn't like to let you down.
Let me down ? Lana, this course was supposed to be an enjoyable experience. Besides, you could never let me down, Lana.
Do you actually believe that ? she asked, swallowing the lump in her throat.
Lana..., he answered lowering himself next to her and placing his hand on hers. You know you can talk to me.
I've already told you, Lex. It's just exam nerves. There's nothing to worry about, she said, missing the hand he had hastened to remove.
I've got something that will cheer you up, he added, walking towards his desk and returning with something in his grasp.
You don't need to give me more presents, Lex, she said with a sad note.
There was only one thing she wanted from him and he seemed to be reluctant to grant it. She knew he cared about her. He constantly went out of his way to show her how much he did. But, somehow, she needed him to say it aloud and to take her in his arms now and then. It made her wonder what she had done wrong along the way.
It's something I know you'll love, he said handing her an envelope.
A trip to Italy ! she exclaimed, her face beaming for the first time in months. When are we leaving ?
Lex saw happiness light her eyes and felt tempted to give in but, as much as it hurt, he would have to say ' no'. He couldn't trust himself not to crush her with the passion he felt inside.
I'm not coming, Lana, he responded, heading towards the wet bar to pour himself a bourbon.
What ? Why not ?
I can't, Lana. These are difficult times for Lexcorp. My dad's waiting for me to make a mistake. He's counting on that, he answered with his back to her.
I understand, she murmured, getting up from the couch and rushing to the double doors.
Lana, I'm sorry. I'd love to go with you but I can't. You must believe me ! he entreated her.
Lana wanted to frame an answer but couldn't find her voice. She simply looked at him with eyes brimming with tears and her hand holding the doorknob.
Don't hate me, Lana, said Lex throatily.
How could I ? she murmured, hurrying out of the study with tears trailing down her cheeks.
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What do you think of the story so far ? Give me some feedback. I love it !
A/N: This is a sequel to one of my first Lexana fics.
To those of you who haven't read the original, I'll just say: give it a try. I guarantee you'll love the way Lex and Lana's relationship evolves. If you don't care to read the first part- shame on you !- or you're absent-minded, here's an introduction to connect both fictions.
As usual, reviews are more than welcome. Enjoy !
REVENGE REDUX
INTRODUCTION
Six months had gone by since the first and only time Lex slept next to the wounded young girl he was so desperately in love with. Nothing unbecoming had happened- nothing other than the comforting embrace of a man who sought to drive away the evil ghosts that were haunting her dreams.
The morning after had been full of surprises, starting with the PI's phone call Lex had answered while still holding a sleeping Lana in his arms. Their first sunrise together would remain imprinted on Lex's mind for years to come, since that very phone call had revealed the terrible secret behind Lana's nightmares, a secret which almost drove him to murder for her. Sexually assaulted . Those two words rang in his ears over and over again and were the ones Lana read in his eyes the moment she woke up. He had blamed himself for it. He had been the real target, and his former wife, Helen, had known how to get to him and who to use to accomplish her deed.
Helen Bryce and her ex-lover Paul Hayden should thank the Lord for Lana. He had made a promise to her he intended to keep. Promise me, she had said. Promise me you won't cross that bridge no matter what. I don't think I could live with myself if I knew you've lost your soul because of me.
Lex woke up every day still remembering those other words, the confession that had stunned him: I've prayed so many times to find true love in my life... . That he was Lana's true love was a miracle he prayed to deserve every day. Yes, ' prayed '. Lana had made him pray for the first time in fifteen years.
Disclaimer: see Introduction
CHAPTER 1: Healing
Lana's recovery had been long and painful, both physically and psychologically. Lex had been with her every step of the way, making her feel loved and protected. In fact, his support had been instrumental in speeding up her progress, according to her physician- Dr Gardiner- and her psychiatrist- Dr Madison. Not only had Lex equipped the mansion with all the gadgets and comforts necessary for a temporary invalid, he had got her the best medical care available and the most advanced recovery programmes.
Lana's treatment had begun with physiotherapy sessions every day and counselling four times a week during the first two months. Once she regained sensation in her lower limbs, Lex got the services of a specialist who used horses to treat conditions such as Lana's. Knowing her love of riding, he thought it'd be the perfect way to speed up her recovery and give her something to keep her mind busy.
Dr Madison was particularly worried about the amount of free time Lana had in her hands and had discussed with her alternative courses of action. Studying seemed to be the most suitable choice but coming back to MetU was out of the question; it would take Lana a long time to overcome what had happened to her on campus. Once again it was Lex who came up with the perfect solution: a six-month long-distance art course offered by the British Open University programme.
Lex, I can't. You've already done too much.
Lana, nothing's too much. A lifetime won't be enough to compensate you for what happened.
We talked about this the first day I stayed at the mansion, Lex. I told you then I didn't hold you responsible for anything.
But I still feel guilty. I can't shake off that feeling. Take it, please, Lana. If not for you, do it for me. Besides, Art is something you love and you can make use of this library. I've got quite a few volumes which are gathering dust.
Somehow, I doubt that, she smiled. OK, Lex, you win.You always seem to get what you want.
It was June now and Lana was back on her feet. Her treatment was almost over and her sessions had been reduced to two per week. Loving Lana as much as he did, Lex had both hoped and dreaded the moment she would regain her autonomy. Once she could walk again, he would no longer have the buffer of her incapacity to stop him from taking their relationship to the next level. He had waited many years to arrive at this point and he was more than ready to commit himself to a serious relationship with her. Still, he knew in his heart that she wasn't prepared, and he was worried of getting too close to her.
Lex hated Helen and Hayden for depriving Lana of the opportunity to experience the miracle of trusting the man she loved-were that him or any other guy- with her innocence. In addition, he was scared witless that she might confuse him with Hayden in her mind, and he tried to reduce physical contact to a minimum- a fact that didn't pass unnoticed to Lana.
Lana sensed that things had changed between them the day he gave her a beautiful mare as a gift to celebrate her recovery. He had looked pleased when she accepted the present but had disappeared before she could thank him properly. Moreover, she realised that he had started to look uncomfortable around her. There had been no hugging and kissing in months, only an occasional pat or a quick peck on the cheek. Lana began having trouble sleeping and ended up confiding in Dr Madison, who- in turn- decided to take the matter in her hands.
Mr Luthor, I'd like to have a word with you, said Dr Madison one afternoon after her weekly session with Lana.
Certainly, doctor. Have a seat. What can I do for you ?
I'm worried about Lana, Mr Luthor. All seemed to be going OK but in the last few weeks something's changed.
What do you mean, doctor ?
Her old fears have resurfaced.
Is she having nightmares again ?
No, she's having trouble sleeping. Tell me, Mr Luthor, do you happen to know what might be the cause of her unrest ?
You are the doctor, madam. Hasn't she told you what's bothering her ?
And what bothering you, Mr Luthor ?
It's not me you're psychoanalysing, Dr Madison. I don't need a shrink to dig into the recesses of my mind. I had enough of that to last me a lifetime, believe me. I'm paying you to help Lana, Dr Madison. Let me take care of my own mental health.
Being you the one person she leans on, I need to know how you feel.
Nothing's changed, doctor. I still love her. I love her more than I did, if that's possible.
Why don't you tell her that, Mr Luthor ?
I don't think she's ready, Dr Madison.
I'm the doctor, Mr Luthor. You said so yourself.
Yes, doctor, but you don't know Lana like I do. If I make the wrong move, I may end up losing her forever. And I'm not ready to live with that.
And what are you planning on doing, Mr Luthor ?
I'll think of something, doctor. Let me do the thinking. That's the one thing I'm good at.
A couple of days after his chat with the shrink, Lex entered the study to find Lana sitting on the couch with art books and papers scattered all over the coffee table.
Finishing an assignment ? asked Lex studying her face.
Yes. It's the final work, said a demured Lana.
Lana, are you OK ? asked a concerned Lex, noticing the rings under her eyes. Are you resting enough ?
I'm fine, Lex. I'm just worried about this assignment.I wouldn't like to let you down.
Let me down ? Lana, this course was supposed to be an enjoyable experience. Besides, you could never let me down, Lana.
Do you actually believe that ? she asked, swallowing the lump in her throat.
Lana..., he answered lowering himself next to her and placing his hand on hers. You know you can talk to me.
I've already told you, Lex. It's just exam nerves. There's nothing to worry about, she said, missing the hand he had hastened to remove.
I've got something that will cheer you up, he added, walking towards his desk and returning with something in his grasp.
You don't need to give me more presents, Lex, she said with a sad note.
There was only one thing she wanted from him and he seemed to be reluctant to grant it. She knew he cared about her. He constantly went out of his way to show her how much he did. But, somehow, she needed him to say it aloud and to take her in his arms now and then. It made her wonder what she had done wrong along the way.
It's something I know you'll love, he said handing her an envelope.
A trip to Italy ! she exclaimed, her face beaming for the first time in months. When are we leaving ?
Lex saw happiness light her eyes and felt tempted to give in but, as much as it hurt, he would have to say ' no'. He couldn't trust himself not to crush her with the passion he felt inside.
I'm not coming, Lana, he responded, heading towards the wet bar to pour himself a bourbon.
What ? Why not ?
I can't, Lana. These are difficult times for Lexcorp. My dad's waiting for me to make a mistake. He's counting on that, he answered with his back to her.
I understand, she murmured, getting up from the couch and rushing to the double doors.
Lana, I'm sorry. I'd love to go with you but I can't. You must believe me ! he entreated her.
Lana wanted to frame an answer but couldn't find her voice. She simply looked at him with eyes brimming with tears and her hand holding the doorknob.
Don't hate me, Lana, said Lex throatily.
How could I ? she murmured, hurrying out of the study with tears trailing down her cheeks.
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